On my way

Good news today my BMI is almost to 25 and for everyone it means a different weight to be "healthy". They have now changed my goal to 160/165 instead of 155. This makes me happy as I weigh 168.4 right now its real I guess ....its real. I'm like .....healthy! My old pa that I had in the beginning that helped me start this journey and got me to my first 20lb loss just contacted me this week I am so excited to see her!!! 

Getting my curves back in check

Still too big?!

Dear self,

Sometimes I am 100% satisfied with how far I have come in this journey. Then there was this weekend where I just cried in the shower cause I felt so fat. Nothing for right and I wanted everything in sight from food to shoes. Not satisfied at all. My period makes me bloat about 5lbs each month that's frustrating beyond belief. I'm in 100% invested in this journey and I get it I have done well but is it well enough? Will I ever be happy is there a good point I will get to or will my wieght always be a burden? Dear self...my husband/best friend looked at me with sincere eyes yesterday and told me I wasn't fat anymore....anymore? I guess that is true!  I am getting to "healthy" and my "healthy" appearance will never be skinny and I need to accept that!
This is my blog  so I am totally entitled to ramble complete non sense to myself as I just did. LOL
Dear self....try harder to love yourself as much as your husband does!

Friday

The shirt is a medium aeropostle shirt I got at Savers for 5.99 SCORE!!!!

Its me :)

Love the color blue all of a sudden! Bought 2 shirts and 2 nail colors in blue. Love this shirt. Felt super sexy wearing it! Yes, I felt sexy!!!!

50lbs down

I bought myself a pair of shorts. The feel so weird all my thigh showing so weird but the hubby says I look good

Sisters Now

My features

I have to admit I love my thighs now! Still thick and meaty but thinner and sexy! I might pull off shorts this summer. WATCH OUT WORLD!

Today

Today I broke 170's as I weighed in at 169lbs UNREAL its amazing! It may come off a half a pound at a time but its leaving me and I could only hope for good!!!! Thanks to my husband first and then to all family and friends that support me. UNREAL!!!!

My Teamate

My best friend, my lover, my body coach and best of all my husband! Russ and I celebrated 6 years of true wedding bliss this weekend. We used this special day to enjoy an amazing dinner with my best friend Candie and her husband Kurt. We were all literally sick when we left dinner had not been that full in awhile however it was 97% protien so it was safe to indulge on. When Russell and I got up this am we drank one cup of coffee then went on am 8 mile walk. God love him he knew I needed that!!!! Hoping to hit 169 next week.

Left foot...right foot...left foot....right

You got it. Everyday I wake up and I use the potty then walk to the scale in the kitchen and step on and WEIGH IN ........  now my can day begin:. If you are making great choices OR bad choices that scale don't lie! Be true to yourself, don't deny yourself something you want such as chocolate. Get creative do research and ALWAYS BE PREPARED get a stash in your purse your car and your desk at work. DOVE makes am excellent sugar free dark chocolate truffles OMG! Carry a protien bar or crystal light drink packets and chug 32ounces. I love myself, pretty sure I love myself more than anyone else loves me. Its true! Know what you want and how your gonna get it. If you want the skinny butt then know the food in your gut!