and....we begin again...FOR REAL!

Today I officially went back to Medi. Im not too out of control but my INNER-self is screaming at me to get finished with my goal and be done with this part.

Today's Stats
177lbs 4lbs of this is water weight since June and 2lbs was true fat! This isn't good and it isn't necessarily bad.

INCHES
Belly Button: 31inches
Hips 43.5 inches
Chest 31.1 inches
Thighs (middle) 20.5inches
Thighs (high) 25.5inches

This WILL be fixed by walking but not until week TWO I need to hit Ketosis first!
YIKES here WE go again. Hubby is on board as well. 

Here We Go...Week One ALL Over Again

Weight 174lbs

Inches
Belly button 33in
Hips (around the middle of the butt) 42.5in
Chest (right under the bra line) 30.5in
Left Middle Thigh 20.5in
Left High Thigh 25in

Goal weight 155-160lbs!  This is gonna be way harder than 50lbs!

Let the New Year begin again...

Last year Russ and I together lost 111 pounds and several.. several inches. It was amazing. However we have been in a temporary maintenance phase since July and we are so entirely ready to finish out this journey. I have 15-20lbs to get off and Russell has another 20 (due to his partial gain) to lose. I really hope we find a sense of happiness or satisfaction in our new bodies. I no doubt feel pretty and strong but will we ever be satisfied with our appearance? I sure hope so. Heres what blows.my.mind...My final weight goal is 150lbs and that still puts me as "overweight" on the BMI scale.. craziness!!!! Its will be all about how I feel. Soooooo I weigh in on Friday the 4th and its go time until then.
Here are some simple shout outs to Royal and Candie I'm super proud of both of you for your  dedication to find a better healthier you! It's feels good. I promise!!!

Before (220lbs) After (168lbs) 49 inches GONE

Burn!!!

Day two of my cardio burn! Friday and Sunday so far! lets kick some ass!! I CAN do this :) sipping caramel apple cider BUT .......I CAN do this
15 minutes on treadmill at 3mph--thats kind of hauling!
10 minutes on bike (2miles)
5 minutes back on treadmill
Boo-ya 30 minutes!

Beyond Tough

I've decided my body and my mind need a break from all of this wanting to feel thin obsession. It feels like its never enough, I'm not pretty enough, skinny enough etc. I have to now start working out again and the drive is gone! Ever since I hurt my knee Im discouraged! I keep trying to lose the last amount of weight with the food and its not affecting me at all. I've decided I'm tired of trying but I cannot give up! I have come extremely far I just don't know what I need right now. I know I need a trip out of here maybe a jump start or restart will take place in Texas over turkey day.  I just know that I loosing the last 10lbs is way harder than the first 50lbs. ---sigh---

Hardest...but smiling!

Trying to shed the final 12-15lbs is super hard!!!!! Trying to stay focused! Gonna need a pep talk soon I'm sure

Week one AGAIN

Well I have been in maintenance 3 months now and proudly I have stayed the same in weight,water and fat which is awesome.but not ideal for me! We did maintenance to kind of trick the body. Now we start all over to shed these last 12-15lbs. This will be a life long process. Your metabolism is an always changing part of your body or system. With age, activity or lack there of your metabolism changes. I refuse to ever gain this weight back and I can honestly say I feel safe, secure.and happy in my own skin who wouldn't want to feel that way all the time. So week one...high protien only! Is it tough absolutely!!! No starbucks no BS! I ask myself how bad do I want this and I even woke up thinking maybe ill just eat a little less of the bad and more of the good cause my bad is nowhere to what is really bad or how I used to eat at all... then I weighed in and the accomplishment I felt was just the same as almost a year ago when I started this..down 2.3lbs in one day! That's what I'm talking about. I will be 150-155 in no time!
Dear Self,
You have kicked ass losing 54 lbs in a year (which flew by) let alone 49inches. Your heart is so proud and your mind is soooo happy! Lets go only 15lvs to go.....what are you waiting for let's make it a merry Christmas by hitting goal. That's almost a 70lb loss!!!! Insane!
Love, Self

Chasing that GOAL

After allowing my knee to heal over the past few months I decided I have to start again. So I am walking. I'm walking slowly and surely. I am praying I don't re-injure my leg cause OMG that pain was awful and annoying! I have 12-15lbs to go plus toning to do. Lets get this already! I gotta admit in two days I've put in 3 miles and so far I don't hurt.....praying it will be ok! Not to mention I feel amazing! Walking is definitely my drug of choice!

Haha whatever works

I have been trying like hell to find "COMFY" pants and with no luck at all I pull out some old pants size XL and roll them. Walllla COMFY pants

A new dress

Love my new dress its purple with glitter stuff in it. Eeeeek :) just enjoying maintenance right now until I can work out. My SI joint and IT band are something fierce!

Yay new jeans

Finally a new pair of jeans size 13/14 from Maurice's love there line of girls these are the kylees!

FRUSTRATED

I am having a hard time with a few things right now, but Medi has taught me I lost the weight once it will start falling off again. Due to EXTREME heat at 5 pm (when my schedule allows me to exercise)  I haven't walked in over a month so I whipped out a DVD workout and severely re-injured my IT Band. Which has really put me down. Honestly pain pills, muscle relaxers, TONS OF REST and apparently deep tissue massage works wonders but a friend said this doesn't cure overnight and I will most likely live with this during work out span...AS SOON as I am done with Medi I'm joining 24hr fitness literally across the street from home. I'm over this trapped feeling I have!! Ready to be 155-160lbs and currently at 168-170lbs....

Shorts!

INCHES UPDATE

Belly button 41-31.5 (9.5 inches)
Hips 49-41 (8 inches)
Left high thigh 30-23 (7 inches)
Left mid thigh 25-19 (6 inches)
Chest 38-30.5 (7.5 inches)
Left arm 16-12.5 (3.5 inches)

TOTAL INCHES LOST 42.5 ....Holy Hell Yes :)
Starting Weight 218.00
Current Weight 167.4

Just LOOK

Love him!!!!! My bestest friend,teamates,coach, cheerleader ever.

So proud of HIM

He finally hit the 200 mark. His goal is to see 199 just once and then he will start working out. I think he might see 199 this week.
This is a total loss of 64lbs for Russell.
Love him so much

On my way

Good news today my BMI is almost to 25 and for everyone it means a different weight to be "healthy". They have now changed my goal to 160/165 instead of 155. This makes me happy as I weigh 168.4 right now its real I guess ....its real. I'm like .....healthy! My old pa that I had in the beginning that helped me start this journey and got me to my first 20lb loss just contacted me this week I am so excited to see her!!! 

Getting my curves back in check

Still too big?!

Dear self,

Sometimes I am 100% satisfied with how far I have come in this journey. Then there was this weekend where I just cried in the shower cause I felt so fat. Nothing for right and I wanted everything in sight from food to shoes. Not satisfied at all. My period makes me bloat about 5lbs each month that's frustrating beyond belief. I'm in 100% invested in this journey and I get it I have done well but is it well enough? Will I ever be happy is there a good point I will get to or will my wieght always be a burden? Dear self...my husband/best friend looked at me with sincere eyes yesterday and told me I wasn't fat anymore....anymore? I guess that is true!  I am getting to "healthy" and my "healthy" appearance will never be skinny and I need to accept that!
This is my blog  so I am totally entitled to ramble complete non sense to myself as I just did. LOL
Dear self....try harder to love yourself as much as your husband does!