Who doesn't love a good photo of themselves?? I do now!!

Husband Update!

In September 2011 Russ weighed in at 260lbs
Today he weighs 214.6lbs.
His waist(measured at the belly button around) has gone from 49inches to 40inches.
Jeans from size 40 to 36 and really he needs a 34.
I have always found my husband sexy but HOLY HELL now he is just damn fine and really sexy!!!!
He is My Jesse James and I am aiming to be his Sandra Bullock :)

Week 18

This picture was taken at a friends 30th Birthday but then I thought well geeez how fitting for my plan as well.
Week 18 weigh in I lost 1lb. Gonna kick some ass this week and aim for 3!

Inches Update

The scale hasn't budged for me but friends keep saying I am shrinking....I guess thats true! :)

Left middle thigh: 25-22in (3inches)
Left high thigh: 30-25in (5 inches)

High chest under bra line: 38-32.2in (aprox 6 inches 5.8 to be exact)
Bellybutton 41-35in (6 inches)

Hips: 49.5-43.5 (5.5 inches)

Arms: 16-14in they don't change. GRRRRR! (2 inches each)

29.5 inches gone from my body!!! AMAZING!!!

Struggling to succeed

Tears roll a lot lately as I struggle to stay on course. I feel amazing!!! 34lbs is huge SUCCESS  to me and I feel really great so what do I do???? I sabatoge myself with food!
No I didn't eat pizza and I don't touch fast food but a cookie here or a cookie there ...eventually causes damage on the scale!
Point is I've been told by others to not deprive myself have a cookie or that piece of pizza its ok. Well its not and that's not something I can do AND  be successful in my journey! its like an recovering alcoholic storing a bottle of wine for that "special " occasion. WRONG!!! Until I hit goal I have no wiggle room to eat bad food.  I Need to find another way to reward myself besides food
I WANT THIS SO VERY BAD AND ITS THE FARTHEST I HAVE EVER COME IN A JOURNEY LIKE THIS!!!! I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!!

Week 17

It was alright I'm just shocked I have never gained even an ounce in 17 weeks. Lost .6 this week but 1.7 lbs in fat!!
I call it just cruising LOL

Bangs

Love my new hair!!!!! I feel fun-er LOL

Finally Kick'N It Again

Back to the working out mojo! Put in 35 minutes today! Oh man I feel good, I have been trying to keep up my arm weights even two days after surgery :) That alone makes me feel toned even though it doesn't look like it yet...it will!

OK the reason for this post: A great friend (Candie) told me I looked "so small" today. Not sure how to handle that or if I can. Yes, its flattering but small????... Well it's never been a word to describe myself...OH!! Wait!!! Yes, my fingers are small! I wear a size 6 in a wedding ring! LOL But body or face...small??? Nope! Never been a adjective for me. Something I could only HOPE to get used to and I love her for even complimenting me that way when I was showing her my new haircut :) ...She has been my biggest fan since October 13th when I started this journey.

As someone who has always been big I know that we change the things we can change quickly like cutting our hair or changing our nail polish and well...I was over painting my nails a different color every week LOL. So I got me some long layers and bangs today!

Cute?? Yes!!
Tomorrow is weigh in for week 17.....

Week 16

Lost 2.2lbs
Total loss 32.6lbs
I'll take it. For once in my life I might enjoy swimsuit shopping this year LOL
Ok so this is a much more vivid picture but its real...kind of like a hanes commercial

The last time

This picture was the last time I weighed 188 (what I weighed last Friday) . I believe I just became  prego with dalton.....looking forward to weigh in tomorrow and for this tummy recovery to be over with.

Another pic

I sent this to Russell today and when he got home he informed me he was showing everyone at work a picture of me 4 months ago and then this one I was flattered however I then explained to him how I really feel inside and my main reason for this blog is to conquer myself!!!!

I still feel...........
FAT!  will I always feel this way? Even at my goal weight will I feel like I always have in pictures. I say pictures because I have always felt beautifully skinny inside its that point when I see a photo and am stunned at who stares back at me.

Obesity is a disease! will the damages it creates ever really be gone or will I always feel ......fat? Still working on this

Update on healing from surgery
I feel good its amazing how much u progress from can't sit up or even sneeze to is it treadmill time yet? LOL